Kiss The Fiddler

Ramblings, moments of humor, random thoughts, experiences, insights, simple wisdom, and whatever else I feel like sharing.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

It is my firm and steadfast belief that nothing good comes out of Texas.


Thursday, October 27, 2011


We went bowling today. All 3 of us. And I forgot my camera. But we had a great time none the less. Great family date "night".

Next time I will remember my camera.


Wednesday, October 26, 2011


There wan an observer at Luken's day care yesterday. She was there observing Luken in a step to determine eligibility for special education services. When I arrived to pick him up, the children were sitting around the 2 tables eating their lunch. That is, everybody except Luken. He was rolling around under the table screeching. Yup, that's my kid!



The dogs' water stayed frozen all day today - even during the part of the day when it was in the sun. The weather is turning. The colors are almost over. It was a beautiful crisp day.

I drove up to Blodgett this afternoon and captured this picture.


Sunday, October 23, 2011

Hard Won!

You'll remember a couple months ago, (right after his birthday) I set up a reward sticker chart for Luken. I thought it'd probably take him a month to complete. He was excited about it. He chose the reward he would earn once he completed the sticker chart. The chosen reward: a Diego Camera!

It was slow going.

Weeks went by. Some days Luken earned up to 4 stickers. Sometimes we'd go days with no stickers. We talked about it every day. I was beginning to doubt.

But then, last week, I noticed that there were only a few empty spots! By the end of the day, he had done it! Luken had completed the sticker chart!

The next day, we went to Target to purchase the promised camera. He was intent and excited.

We walked through the dollar shelves, past the purses, past the girls clothes, past the baby toys, past the toy cars and dolls to the kid electronics section. There were blue and pink Fisher Price cameras. There were orange and purple LeapFrog cameras but no Diego camera. Luken had his heart set on a Diego camera. He decided that he'd rather wait and get his Diego camera in the mail than get one of the substitute cameras. So we went home camera-less.

I immediately found an ordered a Diego camera online. Luken came with me each day to check the mail. Then, Friday, there was a knock on the door. It was FedEx with a box for Luken! He immediately and quite excitedly opened it. When he saw the Diego camera, he shrieked with delight.

Now that he finally has it, he wears it around his neck most of his awake time.

He doesn't really understand the picture taking idea but he has his camera!

I'm proud of him. He had a goal and he stuck with it. What a kid!


Sunday, October 9, 2011


Oh, wow, I've been busy. I spent last week as part of the instructor team teaching a new class of Child Passenger Safety Technicians. This was the last step of my Instructor Candidacy. I finished it! Yay! I'm proud and glad it's finished. My mom came last week to take care of Luken while I was teaching. I couldn't have done it without her. Thanks, Mom.

Kara is working from home now. She has a cute little office set up downstairs in front of the window. This is a new set up and it's gonna take some getting used to having her around all day.

I don't know really what I'm writing about. Sort of just wanted to make a stamp in time. I'm feeling a bit out of sorts and tired. Depressed but I don't know why.

For the past year, we've been locking Luken's door at night. This keeps him from roaming the house when he wakes at night and destroying things (drawing on the walls, pulling down curtains, using scissors to cut upholstery, etc). For the past several weeks, he's been staying in bed at night. So tonight, I just closed his door. I didn't lock the lock at the top of his door. Might pay for this in the morning but we'll see.

Busy day tomorrow. I have a physical therapy appointment. Luken has occupational therapy. I see the chiropractor. We all 3 go see a psychologist (I don't like her). I have small group at church and have been invited to another group as well. It's a lot! I should go to bed so I can hit the ground running in the morning.


Sunday, October 2, 2011

Just Holding On

The last month has gone so fast that it makes me dizzy. I haven't had time to really think about everything that's happened or process it or feel it. I think that today was Sunday. Yes, it must have been Sunday. I went to church. What I did yesterday? I have no idea. It musta been something because I woke exhausted. I wake exhausted every day. Every morning, the first thing I do is make coffee and look at the calendar to see when we have to be where.

This coming week, I am supposed to help teach a Child Passenger Safety class. I will be graded on it. I am not ready. I really wish that I could reschedule.

I am in so far over my head right now that I really feel I might drown. I need more time, more brains and more energy. We are flat broke. Scraping deeper every month. The stress just piles up. We face one thing, deal with it and don't get a chance to catch our breath before the next thing hits us. I don't know how much longer this can go on.