I'm ready to be able to go out once in awhile with my wife, without Luken. So I'm looking for a baby sitter. Babysitters are everywhere. But finding a good one is harder than you might think.
Coupla weeks ago, Kara and I had a date planned. I had won tickets to hear a fun new band. I scheduled a young woman to babysit. I know her. She's a good kid. Just not all that responsible. The afternoon of the concert, I got a message on my facebook from her boyfriend saying that she couldn't babysit that night. What? I haven't been able to get ahold of her since. Too bad because Luken really likes her.
Today I called another young woman. She's 17 years old and doesn't have her own transportation. She doesn't know CPR or first aid. She charges $10/hr. And, get this, she wants to take Luken to church! Ok, really?
I am really struggling to come to terms with leaving my child in someone else's care. I want to protect him from the evils that are out there. I think, that given my history, it may be harder for me than it is for moms without an extensive abuse history. How do I know that the person I place my trust in won't hurt my child? It's so hard to trust. And talking to people like tonight's gal who want to take him to church does NOT help.
3 hours ago