Up until now, I've been doing a pretty good job at keeping the fear at bay. All of the sudden though, it's been hitting me like a wave of panic. My past experiences of not being believed by the medical world are haunting me. What if I'm making all tis up? What if they find that Luken does have seizures? What if they find something else? What if they don't find anything? I was doing such a good job of staying calm about this. Now I'm not. I'm afraid and sometimes the fear is so big that I can't draw a breath.
17 hours ago